Optimistically Pessimistic

I know it is not going to go well
It will be like living a day in hell
Don't try to paint a rainbow in my mind
The truth is the red will bleed washing away the other colors in kind
It always goes this way
This is just another typical day
The sweat that escapes the confines of my skin rejoices it is free
Not caring it's own demise will be at the count of three
Nothing changes unless it is worse than expected
But that is greeted with a smile never to be rejected
There is no way things will go my way
It is this way that my life will always stay
Diving into the tragedies of life head first
My mind needs that every taste to quench it's thirst
Stop the haunting words of better days
For this is the way that it is meant to stay

Written by Lanis

October 07, 2004