Numbers from the Inside
The fears of tomorrow I constantly dread
Counting the beats of seconds in my head
Thrashing rhythmically inside my chest
I try to drown them; I think its best
One is truly the loneliest number when grouped in pairs
My soul is screaming aloud for attention, but only gets stares
Lost in my pain; I point at the ones that can’t relate
They deny the truth at the count of 38
My head hangs down; I can see my feet
They are loosely planted deep in concrete
I can move them out if I could only loose the fear
But there have been there so long I will just stay and shed a tear
Smile upon me as you pass me by
Someday I hope to gain the courage to break away from this lie
Until then don’t look down on me
Because pain has massed in numbers from the inside that no one has ever cared to see
Written by Lanis